Going out on a limb

The post is therapeutic for me. The past year has been a very hard year for me personally. Nothing to major has happened in our life, but I have felt like the real Amy wasn't living inside me. I was very anxious to have my hysterectomy after Everett so I can start feeling better and that has help, but there still wasn't something right about me. As the months went on, I was finding myself more tired, more depressed and I started to have headaches, water retention really bad and my blood pressure would go up. I went to the family doctor to be routed to MRI, CT Scans, Neurologist, and Cardiologist to have an A+ health report. I knew nothing there was something not lining up right. So the cycle continued and got worst. By the end of the year I was a mess and was always on a major roller coaster. I knew that something needed to change but I didn't know what and how. I kept praying that Heavenly Father would please help find something to help the real Amy. About a couple of weeks ago, I was talking to a good friend about everything that I was going through and she said you should go see this Hormone Specialist. So I made an appointment, talk to her for over a hour about everything and took a saliva test. I had to wait for a week to know the results. When I went back in I was just hoping that something was off. There was!! All my hormones were totally not in the normal range and now we are in the process of getting everything in line. I am so thankful I talked to that friend. I have seen some progress, but know it is not a over night transformation. Please know I am so sorry if I have offended any of you this past year. I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me and understand it was not the real Amy. Please know that I am working on being a better person. I had no intentions to hurt anyone. Also, know that Heavenly Father loves you and wants to help. There are other people who understand what you are going through and might be the answer you are looking for.